I
couldn’t resist having my picture taken in front of this tourist trap with the
word Curio in the name. The store was jam-packed with old-fashioned curio
cabinets like the enchanted one in my recently completed novel. I confess I
might’ve studied the contents to make sure nothing inside hinted at a magical
universe.
We
are back from a mini vacation in Glenwood Springs, Colorado. In an astonishing turn
of events, we actually did do some relaxing. Family vacations have always been
problematic for us, and often leave me wondering if other families work so hard
to have fun only to succumb to internal friction.
I
expect that despite Facebook photo albums showing smiley togetherness, most
vacations involve whining, frustration and one or two small disasters. At least
I hope we’re not the only ones.
I
have a friend who refers to “Facebook Families” as a tongue-in-cheek commentary
on all those perfect photo albums and squeaky proud parent statuses. When I’m
having a less than FB-worthy moment, she reminds me that everyone has
those moments. They just don’t post them.
I
tend to take a more honest approach to life. Breathe In Breathe Out has
featured my messy journey through womanhood, motherhood, and my writing
pursuits.
But
I’ve always gotten the most responses to my candid posts about raising a son
who faces multiple challenges including Sensory Processing Disorder, ADHD and
Anxiety.
It’s
been a relief for me to be honest about the struggles we face. And it’s been an
honor to receive comments from moms dealing with similar circumstances.
But
as you may have noticed, I’ve been posting less frequently. There are a couple
reasons for this.
First,
since this blog is supposed to be humorous, I feel like a failure when I’m not
funny. But guess what, sometimes life isn’t funny.
Second,
I’ve been focusing my dubious mental powers on writing and editing my latest
book.
Third,
I’ve been struggling with how to proceed with this blog. For a long time I
couldn’t pinpoint what was bothering me. The answer came in a gradual sort of
way, and, at the same time, all at once—rather like watching your children grow
up before your eyes, then one day looking over to find this full-sized human
you thought was an extension of yourself, but who is really a completely separate
and wonderful individual.
Breathe
In Breathe Out has been about my journey, but it’s not just my journey anymore.
In reality, it never was, but I shared it from my perspective—as a mother of a
special needs child.
But
this is also my son’s journey. I see that more every day. And as he heads into
middle school, I need to be more careful with how much of his life I share. It’s
HIS life! It’s mine too, but, yeah, you get it.
Although
I love to encourage moms who face similar struggles, even that calling takes a
backseat to ensuring both of my sons' privacy as they face the challenge of growing up.
I
know you will understand as Breathe In Breathe Out takes a breather (hee hee.)
I will still share funny anecdotes as they ambush me and glimpses into the
spiral of insanity I call my career.
And
I hope that my journey into writing YA fiction, which I LOVE, will spawn an
entirely new web presence—maybe a cool alter ego who eats sushi and runs
marathons. Then again, maybe I’ll stick to eating cheese and reading books.
Thanks
for being my friend here on Breathe In Breathe Out. I’m thankful for every
person who has read this blog. I hope you’ll stick around as I rethink,
reimagine, repurpose, and redesign my focus. I’m pretty sure it’s going to
require a new wardrobe. And some new shoes. Yes, definitely new shoes.
